Looking Past Sadness

Mourning is a strange process. It seems that I am doing it differently this time around, completely different from when my father died. My grief is more diffuse. I’m happy one minute and then brought to tears the next with no discernable trigger. I was driving and suddenly I found myself crying. I didn’t feel sad nor had I been thinking about my mother but the tears seeped from me. Then as suddenly as they started, they stopped. This has been unnerving because I’m not one to spontaneously cry. I have written some poetry but haven’t really had my heart into writing. Here it is the middle of February without any real effort to produce serious poetry. I’ve puttered and made a couple half hearted efforts, just enough to manage the every other post schedule. Because I wasn’t feeling terribly poetic, I made the rest of the Art Cards. After putting them together I decided to write some senyrus to add to the back. I apologize if these seem somber but it felt right to put them here. In the end, I feel lighter and can see brighter days coming…

     
The changes prompted
Desire and involvement
Would we evoke death

     
Important sorrow
Validation of love
Giving others strength

     
A union of blood
Leading to eternity
From this I profit

     
Now’s the correct time
Hear the velvety heart call
Reply to the crows

     
Keep to your chambers
Gratitude comes with the day
I reside with grace

     
Scan the Twilight hour
Pray death will sanctify me
Moon defends the sun